To Mold Him is to Love Him
I mean the love interests of my main character…
It’s more difficult when you’re not in love with anyone–attracted to anyone–nor dream of anyone in your real world.
Like–I know what sort of man turns my head, generally, and keeps it there for more than two seconds and… strange enough… he generally looks like that portrait of Jesus Christ… I kid you not. And the last time I saw this particular guy was at the Fremont Marketplace, he was walking down the center street, splitting the vendors with long blonde dreads, that sexy long thin face, shallow beard and mustache–a tall guy too but he was playing this strange instrument and looked a step up from homeless… and after all–I am a walking talking paradox. I want the rebel, who strives for mainstream success. This guy and I caught eyes for a few seconds. I turned away when I realized I was smirking at him–amused, attracted and then dismissive.
But by the looks of him and if he acts and reacts in the ways that will draw my affections more to him as he conquers the barriers in my stories, I’ can fall in love with this musician of the marketplace…
So this guy–I dismissed him because one look and I already knew his story. No job. Full of himself and his ideologies, which are resistant to the status quo. He probably knows by now, he’ll never make it as a musician but has convinced himself that what he does, one step away from out and out panhandling is the real work of the music maker. Good in bed–probably. I’ve always been drawn to the silent type–most women writers might be–as the fun, the challenge is pulling those deep dark secrets out of the strong, silent types–especially lying horizontal together on a gray rainy day. And, the strong, silent types pour their passions in their actions rather than their words so they are the BEST lovers…
But, I can make the tall Jesus type with instrument the strong silent type–I can mold him… and love him… so that Clarity can love him and the readers can yearn for him…
That’s what I’ll do it! Though I must admit–it would be nice to be in an affair with a strong silent type right now. The strong silent helped me mold David in Love Triangles on Yellow Wallpaper, ad even Max Black in Misty Black.
I’ll have to write the update of how this is working for me–for now I need to break away from the computers for the next hour…. My head hurts and I can no longer think…
Until then…
